Close to You

That’s all I ever wanted
to be near you
as you down that drink
sitting in front of you
while you watch tv
oblivious to the world
as always

I come closer
inching my way
to your shoulders
my hands longing
to caress your neck
with the lightest of touch

Your skin breaks into goosebumps
as you feel my presence
like a whisper of breath
touching you
chilling you
making you turn around
yet you don’t see me

But I’m close
as you turned back to the screen
laughing at the silliness
thinking that someone’s behind you
oh but I am
I am and you don’t see me

And when finally I touched
your bare flesh
you screamed and threw your beer
and I was stunned
drenched in your liquor
hurriedly running away
from the fear I saw in your eyes

Oh how I weep
as I scurried back into the darkness
the walls, my lair
hiding me and my insignificant frame
while I wait
and watch
until I can come close to you
once more

-┬ęThe Elusive Scribe 042114-









Destination remains unclear
moving with uncertainty
headlights try to penetrate
the gloom that stands ahead
the winding path that leads
to a future yet to be written
fear reeks in every pore
as doubt ravages the heart
yet trembling hands hold still
the wheel of life to drive
bravely towards the future
though surrounded by the mist
of life’s uncertainties.

-The Elusive Scribe 11413-


She Was


She was the woman I was once,
hiding behind several masks.
Afraid to let people in,
fearing they might not like
what their eyes could see.

She was the other side of me,
the darkness that clings to my light.
Can’t stand to be abandoned,
yet kept on receding back to the shadows.

She was the voice inside my head,
whispering incessantly in my every waking day.
The halls of my imagination she claims for her own,
where she creates monsters even from dust motes.

She was me in every sense of the word,
and now we are one for I’ve mastered my fear.
She and I are whole once more,
ready to face tomorrow stronger than before.


-The Elusive Scribe 042713-